For T.S. 💔
I know you're the only person who could see this blog, and seeing this. I just wanted to say that if you ever found it in your heart to forgive me for everything I've done for the last 4 years, then please send me a text, or better yet call me, come to my house--I don't care, just do something. I'd do anything to be with you again and I know I fucked up all my chances, but you have done and said some things to me that were really hurtful, and I spent the last 3 years rebuilding myself up again. I actually thought there was something between us, and you're the only guy I haven't pushed away. I really wanted to try for you. I realize how silly I am, constantly going over and over the same BS that I put you through. I know I don't deserve another chance, but I promise I've changed after all our time apart. You were the only man I've ever loved. Without you, I'm miserable and I can't go through this life without you anymore. If you see this