I've always explored my "dark" sides/selves. The things I'm insecure about, the things I fear on a deeper level - no I'm not talking about spiders or something... I'm talking like existential angst/dread. I used to go on a site. I stopped pursuing it, but had one fond memory of a conversation I had with someone.... He asks me if I have a boyfriend/am actively seeking a serious relationship. I answer no. Further into the conversation he says that if I am seeking a relationship, I must fix any "personality" flaws/insecurities. To quote "Some people get into relationships thinking their problems will be fixed - but they only amplify them". From experience - an extremely vivid one - this is 100 percent true. See, this past year has been chaotic for me. Relationships, feelings, school, friendships, family shit - all one big mess. But here I'll talk about "relationships" that have proven that quote to be true... I've disco...