Different Identities

I can't believe I am continuously writing on here like a mad man. In fact, right now I feel like a mad man. I read over the first post about my recurring nightmare. Trying to figure this entire thing out so I can have a good night's rest. The part where the man in my dream wrote "I can't believe you've left me for another man - THAT DAY," What day? Yes, I've had a past where I have mistreated a partner's trust but I haven't done it this time. Well, I'm not dating anyone but seriously - I wouldn't go out, cheat or see any other people if I started seeing someone/got into something serious. I'll stay loyal and have done in the past. I have/had no temptations whatsoever to cheat on BA, even Logan when we were seeing each other. I didn't even see anyone when I met Robert. I'm a one man woman. Does that even make sense??? Is my mind just trying to come to terms with what I've done in the past??? I'm still shook. Yes, I kn...

Okay so that eerie feeling just came over me again but I'm awake this time. I don't know who this man is, and again - I am hoping this is accumulating guilt I need to heal and deal with. This mystery man is unfortunately still a mystery man. In some ways he represents what my guilt comprises of. In the past I have experienced precognitive dreams, and they were never good. The dreams were always of death. I've had some amazing dreams that came true, but the ones that comprised of death happened to come true. That's why I'm so conflicted right now. Whoever mystery man is, please don't kill yourself over a girl (and if it's me -I'm so sorry), but it and never is worth it. I hope I can help you and make you want to live more than want to leave this world. You are needed here.

I didn't like sleeping to begin with, but now I despise sleeping even more. Why? Because of my recurring nightmares that continue to happen every single damn night. There are several variations of my nightmares but here is one of the most frightening one (to this date - I'm sure some other nightmare can potentially beat it).  Starts off with me waking up to a very dark room. A man's back is turned to me but I can't identify who it really is... An incredibly dreadful feeling comes over me as I realize I have no idea where I am. Who was this man? Why am I here? My fight or flight mode is starting to kick in, as I am sensing immense danger about to unfold. Again, the man's back is still turned to me. All I can gather is he is tall. I get up, and he doesn't acknowledge I'm out of the bed or my entire existence. It's almost as if I'm a ghost. He begins to sob, the sobbing becomes deeper and he buries his face in his hands. As he's sobbing he's ...

Isn't a lovely day to experience a glitch in the matrix? No one knows for sure why some people experience glitches. We all have our theories. Could we be living in a simulation? Parallel universes?? No one knows for sure. Whatever the cause may be - here are some of mine. The other day I was at the movie theatre and watched the movie It. Something was strange about that day, I kept having eerie feelings but didn't know why. Was something bizzare about to happen? I left in the middle of the movie for the bathroom. I go into the washroom and again, that eerie feeling hit me harder. I got out of the washroom stall and suddenly the washroom's appearance had changed. The walls were painted brown instead of beige when I initially walked in, and its length expanded.. I was confused and made sure I was in the right washroom - meaning I was actually in the women's washroom. I was -because other women were there washing their hands, and fixing their makeup etc. I shake it off, t...