Different Identities

Wondrous dreams of a green care free world were interrupted with someone yelling at me. "Get up! You're taking me to the hospital!" "whatt?" I groaned as I was slowly waking up. "My eyes have been paining me for long time! Get ready!" If my eyes were opened - I would've glared at my grandma. Instead,  I glared at her in my sleepy mind. An hour later we arrive at the hospital surrounded by police cars. A security guard stood by the entrance. A man and woman were quietly speaking with the security guard,  a subtle panic in their voices... Will they get in? No one knew what was going on. Not the patients at least. The security guard announced they weren't allowing guests in - only patients... Fortunately we were granted entry. This is where it all began.... The hospital was filled with cops swarming all over the place. A tall,  bulky man answered questions quietly....  Heavy heaving echoed throughout the hospital as I watched the cha...

Ok, before I press the publish button on the Vienna post, I wanted to write this. Firstly, it's 7 a.m. I haven't slept.

What an odd thing to say isn't it? You guys remember him don't you? If you don't ... then I won't remind you lol. He sent me a long apology letter, explained himself and even told me how he did it, and how I need to amp up my computer security. In turn, he's given me some resources to better my programming skills. So why did I do it? Partly due to my "life is short" mentality, and I wanted to pick his brain a little. Understanding his mindset around that event, and was interested in his skill set. I am still a little pissed about it, but I am learning to move past that. I would've been okay with everything provided he did not post those pictures on his crappy blogger site. See, if he were to make the site a bit more presentable - I would've been more forgiving! Just kidding. But it is unfortunate those pictures are out on the internet now. We've now parted ways. A side note, I am still impressed by how quickly my cousin has tracked him down...

Random and quick post but there is this person who is trolling the manipulative bitch reputation. Here I'm more myself, but the manipulative bitch is kind of the main source of income I have, along with interest payments ... Anyways this person is somewhat sabotaging my rep  - but not too much... I was wondering if anyone was interested in countering this troll. I have an idea who it may be. I strongly suspect it is a female. So yes, this is totally random but if you are interested - contact me. There are a few ways - comments - Quora - yes I'm back on there, but as myself. I'm not on too often, and I've answered only two questions. Here's the link, and since most of you know what I look like now (somewhat) I don't mind sharing the link .  Phoebe new Quora - Email  scarlettkennedy101@gmail.com if you know my personal email address/personal cell phone - that'd be even better! I personally do not mind people bashing me, or spreading rumours/lies b...

I've always explored my "dark" sides/selves. The things I'm insecure about, the things I fear on a deeper level - no I'm not talking about spiders or something... I'm talking like existential angst/dread. I used to go on a site. I stopped pursuing it, but had one fond memory of a conversation I had with someone.... He asks me if I have a boyfriend/am actively seeking a serious relationship. I answer no. Further into the conversation he says that if I am seeking a relationship, I must fix any "personality" flaws/insecurities. To quote "Some people get into relationships thinking their problems will be fixed - but they only amplify them". From experience - an extremely vivid one - this is 100 percent true. See, this past year has been chaotic for me. Relationships, feelings, school, friendships, family shit - all one big mess. But here I'll talk about "relationships" that have proven that quote to be true... I've disco...

Two months ago I took a spontaneous trip to Europe. The primary reason this blog is back up. Four cities were in my itinerary: Berlin, Vienna, Paris, & Milan - respectively. I have family and/or friends in Vienna and Milano  - therefore I had limitations in exploring different identities/roles. Regardless of my restrictions - I managed to play around with different roles. Anyway, I've decided to document the role(s) in each city I played. I wanted to go in order, but in Berlin there weren't many or even any roles played... Except maybe adapting to any perceived cultural differences - but I didn't observe much, compared to North American culture... I do feel like the Germans I've come into contact with were very well spoken/mannered... a.k.a.... classy. :P My trip was a total of 11 days. I went back to my hometown for two weeks, desperately missed Europe and begged my family to purchase me a ticket back. They did not want to fund my accommodation - and rightfully ...

Hey, it's been a while.... Been busy but wanted to share a hilarious story with you guys. The other day I was at Starbucks with my 9 year old cousin. She's such a brat... I order a drink - guy asks me what my name is.. I say "x"... Bratty cousin says "NO !! IT'S ____" Ruined my efforts to start this blog up again!!