Different Identities

On Saturday night at around 3 a.m I received a phone call from an unknown number. This person told me Logan was in a fight that landed him in the hospital and he was hurt pretty bad. At first I didn't believe it, so I asked him if he was okay, and eventually the guy was sick and tired of me questioning him, so he hands the phone to Logan. I heard him say in an incredibly weak tone to "please come here."  I get up, and googled the address of the hospital. I knew where it was, it was close to this lake I frequent at. Mind you, I wasn't at home - I stayed over at my friend's place. It was much further than it would've been if I stayed at my house. The buses weren't working, so I called a cab company. $100. Screw it - I thought. Google maps told me it would take me 3 hours to walk there. It probably would've taken 3.5 hours to get there, because I would've taken breaks. Again, I thought: screw it. Got out of bed, put my regular clothes on was on my ...

Tomorrow is the official birthday of the manipulative bitch.  It's 2 years old. This is so sweet.  How should I celebrate - any suggestions??

Hey guys, It's been a while... I needed to delete this blog. I didn't change the URL but I completely deleted it. I was missing the blog and all of your crazy comments. But don't get your hopes up - I didn't miss all the comments. You know who you are!! When I receive a comment on my blog, I receive an email. I was going through the emails, and was sad about letting this blog go. I logged into my blogger page, and tried to see if I could restore this page - turns out I could. I tried to resist the temptation of returning to this blog, but couldn't. So here I am. I did do some tiny experiments but nothing that lasted three days. Just about a day, whenever I got the chance to experiment, and I was alone. It wasn't the same not sharing it with you guys. So now back to the new identity experiment: the Italian engineer student. Firstly, I need to share the backstory. Where I'm from, public universities that are farther out offer online classes. So, I...

I can't believe I am continuously writing on here like a mad man. In fact, right now I feel like a mad man. I read over the first post about my recurring nightmare. Trying to figure this entire thing out so I can have a good night's rest. The part where the man in my dream wrote "I can't believe you've left me for another man - THAT DAY," What day? Yes, I've had a past where I have mistreated a partner's trust but I haven't done it this time. Well, I'm not dating anyone but seriously - I wouldn't go out, cheat or see any other people if I started seeing someone/got into something serious. I'll stay loyal and have done in the past. I have/had no temptations whatsoever to cheat on BA, even Logan when we were seeing each other. I didn't even see anyone when I met Robert. I'm a one man woman. Does that even make sense??? Is my mind just trying to come to terms with what I've done in the past??? I'm still shook. Yes, I kn...

Okay so that eerie feeling just came over me again but I'm awake this time. I don't know who this man is, and again - I am hoping this is accumulating guilt I need to heal and deal with. This mystery man is unfortunately still a mystery man. In some ways he represents what my guilt comprises of. In the past I have experienced precognitive dreams, and they were never good. The dreams were always of death. I've had some amazing dreams that came true, but the ones that comprised of death happened to come true. That's why I'm so conflicted right now. Whoever mystery man is, please don't kill yourself over a girl (and if it's me -I'm so sorry), but it and never is worth it. I hope I can help you and make you want to live more than want to leave this world. You are needed here.

I didn't like sleeping to begin with, but now I despise sleeping even more. Why? Because of my recurring nightmares that continue to happen every single damn night. There are several variations of my nightmares but here is one of the most frightening one (to this date - I'm sure some other nightmare can potentially beat it).  Starts off with me waking up to a very dark room. A man's back is turned to me but I can't identify who it really is... An incredibly dreadful feeling comes over me as I realize I have no idea where I am. Who was this man? Why am I here? My fight or flight mode is starting to kick in, as I am sensing immense danger about to unfold. Again, the man's back is still turned to me. All I can gather is he is tall. I get up, and he doesn't acknowledge I'm out of the bed or my entire existence. It's almost as if I'm a ghost. He begins to sob, the sobbing becomes deeper and he buries his face in his hands. As he's sobbing he's ...

Isn't a lovely day to experience a glitch in the matrix? No one knows for sure why some people experience glitches. We all have our theories. Could we be living in a simulation? Parallel universes?? No one knows for sure. Whatever the cause may be - here are some of mine. The other day I was at the movie theatre and watched the movie It. Something was strange about that day, I kept having eerie feelings but didn't know why. Was something bizzare about to happen? I left in the middle of the movie for the bathroom. I go into the washroom and again, that eerie feeling hit me harder. I got out of the washroom stall and suddenly the washroom's appearance had changed. The walls were painted brown instead of beige when I initially walked in, and its length expanded.. I was confused and made sure I was in the right washroom - meaning I was actually in the women's washroom. I was -because other women were there washing their hands, and fixing their makeup etc. I shake it off, t...